I remember, the very start of the crush was from 19th of April 2009.
It's only around in the mids of August when he coincidentally sat beside me, and I felt my heart beating faster, then I knew I've fallen for him.
But yet in the middle of after that April and before August that period, I did not think of him at all.
Tonight, Christmas Eve, 24th of December 2009.
Listening to the same song since yesterday, it made me cried.
But to be specific, all love songs just links me to him, every single time.
I know it is already not easy to forget someone.
But it seemed even more difficult to ignore things that reminds you of that someone.
Imagine putting yourself in my shoes..
Rejected you, not giving you a chance to openly love, yet still treats you like a friend when met, however won't get to meet any more in life.
This has been going on since the start of the crush.
You are like hell, yet the other is like heaven.
You are in the South, yet the other is in the North.
You are the dumb one, yet the other is the smart one.
You are the noisier one, yet the other is the quieter one.
You know there is no chance, yet the other didn't go against but to support.
What would you do in my shoe?
Longing to just see him again, hoping to get a message from him, thinking of ways just to get closer to him yet..
One step to him = Two steps from him
How torturous can love be?
Fucking tired.. Damn it..
Jasmine
