Dairy 17.

Dear dairy,

She said that everything is now fine between them, I really hope so...

I want all the best for her, its really heart breaking if you see your best bud so devastated...

Anyway, today morning go Taekwondo, den went to Sembawang Shopping Centre.

Took some Thomas Ong photos for my sister kek kek, she was happy =D

Good lor haha...

Anyway during the period in between after TKD and at SSC, was with Sir Jackie, Zhi Ying and some students to eat snacks together haha!!

This is so enjoyable kek kek...

But i'm afraid after April grading there will be no more like this...

Kinda sad lor...

Asshole Zhi Ying keeps picking on me!!!

Really an ass lor, say I look weird with my new hair style and bla bla bla...

shit him!

Then Sir Jackie was shocked that I rebond hair say I prettier!!

WEE!!!

*Increase confidence level =D*

Kek kek kek, its so fun during Taekwondo...

Really very sad after April grading le...

Also, still hoping I get into Hospitality Operations in Clementi ITE lor.

Seriously hope they will call me say success in appealing! =(

Jasmine

Dairy 16.

Dear dairy,

I made a mistake I really mustn't do...

I shouldn't have made the call.

But seriously, I can't watch her being so devastated yet I can't do anything...

I really felt so upset when I saw her today...

I made a misunderstanding between them...

Now he blames her.

FUCK!!!

No matter what I do, there will always be consequences...

Now I really hope they will be OK together soon...

Jasmine

Dairy 15.

Dear dairy,

I've been having severe headache these days...

Also, I get so depressed at times...

But I don't know why.

Anyway, just now watched channel U's Youth Olympic Games (YOG) show.

Haha I'm so happy to watch this episode!!

Yes, you've guessed it dairy!

This time they are showing Taekwondo!!!

Well, as a black belt, this doesn't mean I know everything.

From the show I learned that, each colour of the belt has its meaning behind it...

Also, i've recorded it into my handphone.

So this Sat I will be showing him the 'show' in my HP.

Talking about this, I also told my sister not to tell everyone that her sister is a Taekwondo black belt.

This gives me more pressure...

Because in everyone's eyes, I may be good in fighting and all, yet i'm not really is...

Anyway, will be checking up how to go Clementi ITE...

Going there just to apply tomorrow with Angie Lee lor.

She sounds so sian every time I talk to her.

Really wonder if I had said something wrong or what.

Jasmine

Dairy 14.

Dear dairy,

First, now i'm feeling so embarrassing for not even knowing how to spell 'acquaintance' at first until someone younger than me tells me...

This feeling is totally shameful...

Secondly, i've said really nasty things to Guo Xiong, and right here, I am saying sorry sincerely for not even knowing what's happening before I went to blame you...

Thirdly, days by days i'm so worried that my chance of going ITE is smaller and smaller...

I really wish that I can just go to Clementi Campus to ask about my doubts and just straight apply at there.

My sister just don't seemed bothered about this application.

Well, I can understand cos' already at first she doesn't even want me to go ITE...

Fourthly, there is an ulcer inside my mouth.

Fuck it, its so irritating!!!

Yes, its not pain or what, but I can feel it there!!!

GRRR!!!!

Now everyday, I will put salt on it 2 times a day, and its not even a bit smaller.

Instead, its the opposite!

Grrrrrrrr............

Lastly, now that I have rebonded my hair, I so worried everyday that it will curl back the way it was.

Of cos I know it won't. But...

I just can't get the thought of 'Its gonna curl back straight away after a drop of water touches it' away...

Now that I look at my hair, its slightly curled at the end...

Hais...

Jasmine

Dairy 13.

Dear dairy,

Just now in the evening about...5.30pm?

I went for rebonding for my hair...

Hm...I cut my fringe also la, looked kinda weird.

Perhaps i'm not used to my new fringe??

Anyway, checked my email and notice the ITE guy reply me liao, about late online application.

It's kinda complicated... Really hope I can just go to any ITE campus and just apply there.

Online application is complicated for me. Darn it.

Ya, so din take any photo of my new hairstyle...

Weird...

Jasmine

Dairy 12.

Dear dairy,

Yesterday I went for City Alive 2010 at Pit building!!!

Everything was sooooo great there man!

Music, lights, smoke, DJs, dancers and friends!!!

It's great... Totally...

Anyway below is preview photo of yesterday, wan see all go see my FB =)

*Wink*

Yea, me and Siao eh... XD

Yes ,my dressing...

Angie Lee's dressing =)

MRT there~~

~^u^~

FIREWORKS!!!!

Me and siao eh, Angie Lee =)

Me and Connie!!!

Me and Janice!!

Janice and her best sis, Connie =D

The hippo bus...

Lots of smoke~~~

Just keep dancing!!!



Angie and Janice...

VIPs!!

Kan from Madagascar and me!

Good bye party...=(

Stupid wrist band indicating me under 18... T-T

Light ring!

Supper at Popeye!!

Thats all everyone!

Jasmine

Dairy 11.

Dear dairy,

Just now, I went for City Alive's flash mob rehearsal.

Me, Janice and 3 other guys (her friends) waited and waited and waited...

We waited from 9.30pm to 11.10pm.

Only then, the real rehearsal starts.

This picture is when we walking there...

Singapore Flyer!!!

One of the Chingay big thing.

What do you call that?? Not sure. =X

Still walking there...

They having Chingay rehearsl before tomorrow's big day!!!

Just as we 5 are talking, suddenly here comes the fireworks!!!

Very nice uh?? =D

Then went home and chat with my sister.

She said she was at the Chingay there!!!

Haiya... She should have called me when I sms her ma...

Anyway nvm la, she was with someone I dun like.

Tomorrow's the big day!!!

CITY ALIVE 2010!!! HERE I COME!!!

Jasmine

Dairy 10.

Dear dairy,

I bought the Essential's Hair Mask today which is the yellow one, not the pink one.

Well...Result, first timer, is not that good la.

But I know it will soon =)

Tomorrow is the final rehearsal for the flash mob at City Alive 2010!!!

Haven tell Janice where and what time meet her and all...

Jia lat... Hm... Guess I'll sms her tmr first thing then.

Finally, I've convinced my sister that going to ITE's higher NITEC is a better path for me.

But now, there are quite a few bad news:

-Is it too late for admission now?

-Seen courses I can go's progression opportunities, all say first year of similar poly course.

(Jia lat liao lor... But how come GX can go 2nd year after his high nitec??)

-Should be either go Clementi or Bishan's Campus lor.

-What if its too late to register?? What should I do??

-Heard Angie say Business Studies: Event Management is crazy. How?? =(

Hais...

Guess i'll ask GX in Facebook about his experience.

I hope he will reply this matter to me ASAP as this is seriously important to me.

And I want him to stop misunderstanding that I like him.

F***.

Jasmine

Dairy 9.

Dear dairy,

Had an argument with my sister just now, about whether to repeat the 'O' levels or to go ITE.

She says she just don't understand, why can't I work more harder for this 'O' levels??

I said that I wanted to study something which I will love, which I may choose at the start for a course in ITE.

I'm thinking, 'O' levels subjects are so difficult, concentrating on so many subjects, especially if they are combined.

At least in ITE, of course some things I may not like, I know most things will be something I love cos' I already chose the course I wanted.

...OnO...

Why does she seemed to look down upon ITE???

Is it cos' she'll be embarrassed that I may be going out with her in my ITE uniform??

She said no to this question.

I really don't know what to do...

Now that she has said, 'Ah, you just do whatever you want la!'

Till now, my voice seemed to have faded away...

Jasmine

Dairy 8.

Dear dairy,

Am at Mr Tan's house now, the founder of St. Teresa Taekwondo Centre =)
Just now played blackjack 21 and... ya lost and win some money.
How much?? I'm not very sure... Cos i din remember the start of the amount I had =X

Haha... Its jus a few days more to CityAlive!!
I'm soooooo excited!!! I will be dancing with many other dancers together in the flashmob!!

Later will be going to cousin Jonathan's house and we can go swimming!!!
WOO HOO!!! =D
Hm...Should be 4pm leave this house, go Bukit Batok MRT den take taxi lor...
Yupps...

(Ang Bao, Ang Bao, Ang Bao...XD)

Jasmine

Dairy 7.

Dear dairy,

Now using my cousin's laptop.His name is Jonathan and is now sleeping wa hahahaha~~~
Haha,ever since Wobbie is found, my spirit is totally up now...
Really, very happy that she came out...

Today is Valentine's day as well as CNY day 1.
Valentine's day uh? Hm...Well...
It doesn't matter if i'm still single. Only 18 years old ma...
Anyway also single, heart broken thru crushes and still waiting for fate for a long time liao...
So, never mind la...=)

Next Saturday's the performance!!!
Wow...I'm soooooooooo excited!! WOO!!!
May everything keep going smoothly thru my life, especially till next Saturday!!!

Jasmine

Dairy 6.

Dear dairy,

Right now, i'm at my cousin's house with Shi Yun and Wei Qiang around me wahahahaha~~~~
Then in my cousin's room, there is their marriage photo. I see le its soooooo sweet!!!
Everything was so lively here, just now la. Thats why I used was.
Now lesser people cos some left liao...

Haha also, I remembered about my flash mob dance performance next Saturday!!
To think I actually managed to remembered all the steps just within 2 days!!!
This is so amazing...
I will be inside the City Alive 2010!!!
Wow...I managed to gain a free entry!!!
City Alive is the biggest street dance party...
Seriously... Didn't even expect the least I would be in this party!!!

Now, I also thought about Wobbie..
She's still missing, even though I left food in some specific place, thinking where she may be...
I seriously miss her... This is like...
Someone close with you had just...
='(...
Wobbie... Where are you??...
Whenever I hear Corrinne May's song called 'Fly away', I would cry so hard that I can't really breathe and my shirt quite wet together with a headache...
Hais...

Jasmine

Dairy 5.

Dear dairy,

Since yesterday, i've been terribly upset, devastated, and all kinds of sad feelings till now...

Reason? While I wasn't at home yesterday, Wobbie, my terrapin, managed to climb out of the container.

Currently, she's now lost in my house...

Yet I can't find her...

Damn... She must be very hungry now...

What should I do... I know crying doesn't help...

But I can't help it but cry...

I know it is good that I found her ASAP.

I'm just extremely worried, though prepared, by the time I found her...

She's... I DON'T WANT TO FIND HER BY AN AWFUL SMELL!!!!!!

*Crying again*

Wobbie... Please come out...

Where are you?...

Jasmine

Dairy 4.

Dear Dairy,

About tomorrow's plan, I've changed quite a few...

First meet up siao eh, then go look out CNY clothes too, then go dance rehearsal for flash mob!!!

YES!!! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!

Then, I shall not say anything about my previous plan.

Just saying, everything's changed =D

Tonight, bought a set of CNY clothes!!!

Something like blue and white vertical lines with a black shorts!

Finally get to wear a shorts(not pe shorts) of my size!!! WOO HOO!!!

Haha... Still wan either blazer or vest la though...=)

Seriously so excited...XD

No track pants, so think of wearing my Taekwondo pants...

Of cos, plus a black shirt! 'SONG' AH!!!

Thinking of putting up the vid, showing wads the dance like.

But...I think not.

So as to have a surprise!!! =D

Jasmine

Dairy 3.

Dear dairy,

As I said before, these days seemed quite easy for me and my sister to have a tiff.

Indeed, you've guessed it, we had one again after Taekwondo.

But I won the battle...Hiak hiak hiak... XD

Anyway, whenever I go to Taekwondo. I got to appreciate the time in Taekwondo.

For that I won't be in this sport anymore after 2nd week of April...

As in, not permanent la. Just that... I still feel very sad lor...

Besides, my sister have no decided on a private school for me yet.

And as I said, I still rather going for higher nitec...

Chinese New Year(CNY) is coming. Yet, I have not found any clothes yet.

This year, i'm looking for either a blazer or a vest.

Hmm... I'm still quite worried about the vest cos I was afraid I may look like a waitress. Aiyo!

Next Tuesday, 16 February, I also hope that ZL will be there too...

Well, now I dare at least give this 'ZL' clue, just cos this group of people are too stupid to notice.

Or should I say, they don't bother??

Anyway, ZL seemed to be so busy these days, I guess even on CNY??

I smsed him at around 10pm, yet till now I have not get a reply from him.

Honestly speaking, I don't expect a reply. Cos his busy. *Damn...='(*

About this ZL guy, i've been thinking sometimes...

Even if we are to be together(wishful thinking though), I bet we don't even have time to be together, because ZL is busy.

Of cos, its good that guys are more career minded, but...

Nvm.

Just hope to see him next Tuesday... U_U

Jasmine

Dairy 2.

Dear dairy,

These days, it seemed quite easy for me and my sister to have a tiff easily.

is it called tiff? ah wadever la, is like quarrel.

yesterday, sunday, we were shouting at each other across the road, people passing by looked at us.

wad happened is, cos i was alone, i listen to music loudly.

she was trying to catch up wif me cos need me bring home sushi.

we quarreled till she was so angry that she threw the sushi on the floor.

thus i jus walked away, on the way putting the left side of ear piece on my ear.

den i heard her again. and there we go, shouting at each other.

i jus wanna noe, when ur alone, who doesnt concentrate fully on his/her music??

fuck.

den today, cos of my com's internet problem, my big bro ask me to tell my sis to call starhub wad happen.

den my sis call me and complain say she not always free to call.

and so, we quarrel on the phone, cos she ask me go check on the com.

'Now?', i asked. 'What you doing now?', my sis asked.

said i watching tv, but she din hear me, i dunno, so i ask her wan me go check com now is it?

she ask wad i doin, i say watch tv, she ask watch tv wad?

i say tv show la, den she put down phone.

of cos, i was like what the fuck.

whatever. i only know, i did not do anything wrong.

and jus wads wrong with ite? as wad i said, no matter wad i do, i dun make a stand in this family.

i still rather going higher nitec more den doin sec 5 again...

but since they wan me do o again den i do lor.

No matter what I do, I am not good enough in their eyes.

Good memories were long gone from my memory, as they were just temporary happiness.

Bad memories were still inside my memory, as they were permanent hurt.

Jasmine

Dairy 1.

Dear dairy,

It's been a long time ever since I wrote in you.

Many things have happened.

Well... I got my 'O' levels result on Jan 11, 3pm.

As I had expected, I failed my 'O' levels.

Of course, I got scolded by my 2nd brother.

My sister was like... Counselling me?? Ya.

My dad, mum and big bro was disappointed.

I admit, I din use all the time I have to seriously study...

Like normal people, I cried terribly.

In the end got headache and cried at the moment people talk about my result.

Even now, I feel like crying again.

I also remembered on the day I got my result, I went to work too.

They asked about my result, "I failed".

I started crying, and my senior hugged me...

Currently looking for a private school, probably MDIS.

Lastly, I also remembered that, I got too stressed.

In the end, I cut my left wrist and now there is a scar.

I don't regret it. However...

No matter what I do, nothing can make a stand.

My true choice is just to go higher nitec, poly, diploma, work.

If only I did not fail my 'O' levels...

Jasmine