So disheartened...

Now still afternoon typing this post so nothing much to type cos' its not whole day...

After recess, it was my Design and Technology class.
At first, was really happy that I finally thought of a idea for the stupid theme!!!
Who knows??...When I talked to Mr Lim, he said my idea is quite lame.
Well, I can also understand as he explains why its lame.
One classmate laughed at him, 'Cher! You so straight forward sia...'
Then Mr Lim explained to me that he had to be straight forward so as not to waste time...
Ya its true la...
But...
After long time thought of a stupid idea is so difficult...
Hearing what he say really did disheartened me la...=(
Hais...Was really frowning for the one and half hour...
This is a important year to me...I can't keep being so stupid.
Fuck la...Wa lao...=(
After that, went back class for English lesson...
After half hour I fell asleep in class...Ms Quah didn't catch??
Anyway was really embarrassed even though she didn't see...
But...Was I being sensitive?
Why is L, P, E, S and S laughing???
What are they laughing?...Are they laughing at me??...I felt even more disheartened.
*Melody goes by*
That is the sound of saying the school has ended.
I was slightly happy cos' can go home sleep...haha.
But after packing my backs and stood up, everyone had a really happy smile on them.
'Hey, where you going later?'
'Wa wait for me leh...'
'Come on lets go!!'
These are the voices of my classmates...
They all had friends to go out with...I do have too but...There is nothing much between us.
Even if I go out with them, I will still be quiet as I had nothing to talk with them.
I really felt like asking one of them where are all of you guys going?
But, I didn't. I was afraid they would think i'm asking a stupid question.
In the end, my life went back the same.
After school, straight go back home...
Hais...I guess right now I will take a nap first before going Taekwondo at night.
Why does my life sucks so much??...='(