Diary 32.

Dear diary,

April 11 is coming. Really really really soon...

How much I wish that day does not come...

When I saw him every single time, I just felt like hugging him so tightly.

But in actual fact, we were friends. We are friends. We are still friends.

This really hurts me so much because I had to be his friend.

I don't want to... But again...

His capabilities. His skills. His knowledge and everything.

I just can't see which part of me even stand a 0.1% chance to be with him.

Currently, failed application to ITE, have not bought all subjects that will be tested on de Ten Years Series.

I feel so useless whenever there is people asking me, 'so now you working or studying?'

I do not know how to answer this. I'm not working, NOR studying...

I lied that I'm studying...

This feels so miserable...

April 11... Just 6 more days.

It'll be the last time i'm seeing him.

Maybe November? Next year? Or forever??

I do not know when will I see him again.

As I saw him, I wanted to hug him.

As I talk to him, I want to say 'I love you'.

As I drift away from him...

There is nothing I can do about it...

Blue. A depressed colour. Real true...

*Utterly shattered heart*

Jasmine