Diary 100.

Dar diary,

Wow, i'm so glad that this is the 100th entry!

So sorry for not coming back to you after so long..

This should actually be like nearly 150th entry??

Well, cos I didn't post entries every single day mah heh heh..

Also, please forgive me for not showing you any photos..

Been having difficulty to upload photos whenever I want to.. =/

Sorry sorry..

Well, lots of stuffs happened.. Things like..

School started, fucked-up stuffs, loss of interest, downhill-ing, busy like hell and fatigue.

Yea as you know, my school is Simei ITE, College East.

Course? Higher Nitec in Business Studies (Sport Management).

Ironic eh? A fat person in sport management, WTH.

This is kinda wordy so.. Sorry about that.

Having trouble to upload photos..

The national inter-school tournament was over and I wasn't there.

Told the wrong person that I couldn't make it.

Yesterday's BBQ, I did not order the food either.

If not for her to her, I would have been dead-meat.

Thank you very much Mdm Suriana.. ^u^

Have always idolized her haha.. She's good in everything!

BTW, i've decided to deactivate my Facebook and Twitter.

Why?? For Facebook, it's because.. Well, I don't know why too.

Twitter, I just decided to sign out and don't really use it again.

Nothing much to do there and nothing keeps me going anyway.

When will I be back? Probably never, probably when someone really wants me back.

So I guess, Diary, you and Plurk will be my only online "friends" now.

See who realises that.

Haha..

Yesterday during the BBQ, my slipper's strap snapped.

I continued staying happy thou haha..

Then I said, "even when I act as thou i'm happy, you guys won't know right?"

Of cos I jus haha-ed at the end of this sentence.

They heard as something else, not sure wad, forgot already.

But anyway, sometimes a smile is forced, just whether you can differentiate it or not.

I told Daryl that now, when I listen to love songs, I felt weird.

Because I don't know who to think of when listening to it.

But after seeing him again, I can't seemed to get away from love songs.

Feelings are really hard to control isn't it?

Heard from one of my friend, her relationship with her BF may come to a break.

This really saddens me.. Cos..

To me, a relationship is not easy to create, if not for the spark.

So the lesson learnt is, never judge a book by its cover.

Back to the guy whom I liked for 2 years, and for 2 months after his rejection.

He looked kinda tired when sitting down.

His eyes were closed, and there is this urge inside me.

"Hey, tired go home first la.." and "Don't care about him Jasmine!!!"

Physically, I don't even feel like talking to him.

But yet mentally, it's killing me as I see him so tired.

Hardworking as ever, doing work even when it's time to relax.

Weirdo, carrying his bad for the WHOLE day.

Can't blame, there's his lap top inside.

Quiet, just as I expected.

Can't blame, cos i'm the one who chose to have a distance with him.

I kept going away, cos I wish he came over to me.

Well, school had already started, I should be bucking up.

Better stop wasting my time thinking of someone who don't even care a shit about me.

And now start revising my studies already. It's already the 4th week in school.

Bye..

(I wish you were here.)

Jasmine